Thursday, November 26, 2009
{ 8:01 PM }
Yesterday, i chatted with Tashvin.
Surprisingly, that lasted for a loooong time.
And I'm glad it did. We managed to sorta catch up with each other.
I enjoyed the chat, very much.
I'm not expecting anything more than this, I just want us to have a good friendly chat, anytime at all. Like whenever we see each other.
And until right now, I'm feeling this special, and good sensation.
I don't know if I want it to stay, though.
I just don't want to want to relive the whole relationship again.
I guess I just miss having a good, productive talk with Tashvin.
My brains shouldn't overthink this, but unfortunately, they are!
=/
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
{ 12:10 AM }
go check it out,
it's my new fashion blog.
follow it, comment on it, read it, live it!
yeah baby!
;) catch y'all latersss
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
{ 2:52 AM }
a year ago, i was thinking of a boy, every day.
when the year is going to end, once again, i am thinking of the boy.
the very same boy.
the boy who swept me away,
the boy who swapped spit with me,
the boy who filled the empty part of me, longing for love,
the boy who also left me broken-hearted at the end of the whole roller-coaster.
the whole journey was a thrill!
but at the end of it all, i puked.
just like a roller-coaster ride, the break-up was hell.
crying over a boy felt like fainting and puking all over the place.
(you can go find one of my posts where i wrote a long note to Mr. Heartless)
but now as i look back,
all i can recall are the good days.. the great smooches we shared, how his body felt against my skin.
oh, how wonderful that was!
even after finding out what LOVE really is, and how i shouldn't misuse the word,
i still think i was in love.
it was..unconditional.
did he love me?
i do not know.
even if he didn't, i know that was a good ride while it lasted.
now, you must be thinking, what is the point of this?
the point is,
no matter how much my friends or other people tell me i shouldn't think of the "caveman" (as how Sindhu would put it), you can't stop a girl from her dreams.. her fantacies of what happened.
never have i been so close (and when i say close, i really mean it) to a guy.
what more can i say, when the guy i was so intimate with is such a hottie.
seriously, you girls out there would wish you had your hands on him.
too bad, i got to try him out :P
but anyway, do i still love him?
i don't know.
i guess i love the memory, the old him who cared for me, the old him who just wanted to be around me and make me blush the whole time.
i remember the butterflies in my tummy everytime we would meet.
it was unbelievable!
i still get them once in a while, everytime we would see each other.
it's amazing how love never fails.
so there you go, another post, full of emotion thrown into it.
hope you enjoyed your time reading it as much as i enjoyed writing it :)
Sunday, November 22, 2009
{ 8:29 PM }
here's a sneak-a-peek of what i have in store for you fashion lovers out there.
some Zac Posen (maybe A LOT) for you liking.
i'm starting to LOVE his designs.
they're very wearable and beatiful.
now, this i what i call
FASHION.
catch me SOON at my up-and-coming
FASHION BLOG
Friday, November 20, 2009
{ 10:36 PM }
just got back from our awards thingy at the DBKL Auditorium.
oh, what joy!
PMR-ers got rm500 (straight A-ers)
and im glad :D
man, have i got plans for the ka-ching!
anyway, here i am, waiting for my family to actually get ready to go out for some
"long-time-no-shop" shopping :D
i'm ready to go and dad's still watching TV,
mom's still doing her mom stuff,
sissy #1 is doing shit in her room,
sissy #2 is prolly taking a nap.
i sudah siap pakai my pretty clothes siap dengan bangles and they're not ready
=.=
so i'm blogging.
this post is pretty pointless, but it's just another bleehhhh, just read if you want, find your exit if you think this is lame.
OMGOSH
i just thought of something really lame my friends were talking about yesterday
& i can't portray the lameness here.
number 1, i'm not lame enough :D
number 2, it's hard without the dramatic facial expressions with my body movements
anyway, they were like...
you're not lame anymore!
you're HANDICAPPED!
=.=
that's all i could give them.
so i got bangs the other day,
and i decided to show it off at Small Group (SG) last night.
i only got 1 (almost) negative feedback.
Andrew thinks i looked better before.
but he didnt sound mean, so i'm fine:)
& Lydia thinks i look cute.
okay, CUTE isn't exactly my goal, but hell, i'd rather have cute than nothing!
oh! oh!
Brandon's coming backkkkk
i can't wait.
i miss my Brandon.
yes, MY brandy boy :D
lol.
don't get me wrong here, no bf/gf thing goin on here
and since Christmas is coming,
i'm sure he'll get me something.
*hint*
xox
Thursday, November 19, 2009
{ 6:32 AM }
so i went for a brisk walk with my dad again today.
after MANY MANY days of being outta the workout mode.
i feel unhealthy!
but today, i put on my sneakers and went for a walk.
usually, my dad and i talk about my future and what we think about stuff.
on anything.
whether it's how bias the government can get, or how fantabulous my future will be!
good stuff.
i always enjoy long walks with my dad.
thank God for a non-rainy day today :)
so today, we were talking about random stuff like how i have to do well and get good grades and persue my dream career after uni and all.
things like these get me pumped for the future.
screw the 2012-world-gonna-end theory.
i'm livin' the life.
livin' MY life.
God decides the time.
we humans just live it!
let's change topics! :D
i just read a short summary of Manolo Blahnik's life.
WOW, is what i give him.
the shoes he made are BEAUTIFUL!
sorry Jimmy Choo, gotta give up to Blahnik for this.
this time, im not just looking at the label.
this is real, raw shoe beauty.
the designs are amazing!
i would kill to walk in them!!
may God bless me with a rich hubby, or a fantabulous job next time to afford Manolos!
*pray pray pray*
i'll get em one day, you'll see ;)
now, to the next topic!
we're going to Bangkok for a Christmas Holiday! YAY!
can't wait for the shopping spree that has been promised,
the good food, the amazing new culture and umm.... "mak nyahs"?
so that's something to look forward to during this coming holidays!
and tomorrow's the last day of school already.
can you believe it?
one whole year just flew by and i'm gonna be in form5 in no time.
sounds freaky, but i think i can handle it ;)
anyway, back to my Bangkok story.
my cousin Stephy goes there almost every year for shopping.
so perhaps i should get some recommendations from her!
but maybe she should finish her SPM first, hmm? :)
okay have i written a lot yet?
nuff said :)
ciao bella
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
{ 6:41 AM }
yesterday was one helluva day in school!
Sindhu & Divya came up with a crazy idea to get drunk the night before school.
which was on the tuesday night.
they asked me to join, & i gave in.
we went over to Divya's to have some "fun"
&
damn, did it taste bad!
i wasn't drunk, i swear.
i was just.. RED. as you can see in the photo below :)
the two other girls on the other hand, weren't as sane as i was.
they were ALL OVER THE PLACE!
i suggest, not to do this again.
but something in my gut tells me they are stubborn enough to do it again.
i just know them too well :)
so i shall not turn this post into a lecture for them, instead...
this will be for others to laugh at.
if you were there, you'd really laugh at what ridiculous shit Sindhu did.
she felt flat on her face while walking down the stairs,
i had to help her walk to the bilik pengawas from where she fell
and all these happened in front of juniors.
tell me, embarrassing, or just having the ASS (attention seeking syndrome)?
you be the judge of this :)
sometimes i think they could've acted better, but if they had decided to do that, who am i to object?
and it IS their "air muka" kan?
not really MY prob.
if i wanted to say yesterday was a good day, i could, but i don't think it's THE BEST.
i've had better days.
days when my friends actually listened to me.
once again, i shall not be mad at them.
Sindhu, you're probably the only one who reads my blog (including Shannen & Atiqah)
so don't get mad. you don't know how frustrated i was, handling you and divs...
i've learned that, slaps do not work with you.
a spank on the ass maybe?
oh, no, that would turn you on.
so, you tell me what i should do to wake you up next time :)
it's okay babes, at least you didn't actually drink in school :)
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the two other girls on the other hand, weren't as sane as i was.
